content warnings:
suicidal ideation/thoughts. depression. disordered eating. child abandonment. manipulation. self destruction. self harm. self degradation. mental illness. dehumanization. inferiority complex.

you're loveable, so loveable, but you're just troubled.

statistics.

“ Dakota Doll Themself. „

name.dakota doll.
real name.dana drexel.
birthday.may 12.
age.15.
height.6'0"
weight.126 lbs
voice claim.elsa korr - jojo rabbit

gender.pangender / intersex
pronouns.they/he/she.
bloodtype.O-
ethnicity.german
language(s).english ;; german ;; (inaccurate) shakespearean

* Description !

Dakota Doll is an easily impressionable teenager with a german accent. Initially, they spoke Shakespearean English.They've had their past, their struggles, their secrets. Much of which they don't want to admit. It seems to be weighing them down.They hope to just spontaneously get better someday.

* Preferences !

likes.this blue. shakespeare. their friends. darkness. the stars.

dislikes.loud noises. bright lights. green. fluffy dandelions.

phobias.i'm not going to be scared anymore.

hobbies.crafting. writing. cooking. painting. really just learning random stuff.

* Mental State !

Dakota is.. better, thankfully. Better than they had been doing prior. Of course, there's a lot they have to work through.For example, all their pent-up emotions--specifically their anger. All being directed towards a certain group they recently resigned from. It doesn't make it better that only their medic had come to their birthday party.... Perhaps they just need time to get over it. Things always get better with time, right?

* Health !

⋆★ anemia due to blood loss.⋆★ malnutrition.⋆★ symptoms of a possible eating disorder.⋆★ left thigh scar, from an axe injury.⋆★ a shredded left hand, from four rifle rounds.⋆★ circular burn scars, all from different points in time, in various spots on their arms and legs. these are purposefully covered by their clothing.⋆★ strangely professional stitches on their left thigh.

relationships.

“ Order of the Old World. „

It's surprising how they just did a complete 180 on how they felt about the Order. They have so much pent up anger, and they need somewhere--someone, to direct it to. They need somebody to blame.“ You all were my first friends, but I will not let you be my last. „

* Paladin Leinsel :

“ Stubborn. „

Stubborn. Stubborn and hard headed, that's what they think of you as now.They used to idolize you. They used to want to be like you. Now, they only find resentment in their heart towards you. Luis was right.Dakota will never be satisfied. When they realize you're happy for them that they left, they'll get more upset because they wanted you to be upset.

* Baronet Ursa :

“ In the right. „

In their eyes, Ursa is completely right in everything she said to the Paladins. They shared her opinions exactly.

Is it that, or do certain people easily sway Dakota's opinion?

Currently, Ursa is one of the only people in the Order that Dakota doesn't feel sick towards.

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* Baronet Mordred :

“ December 23rd. „

Mordred had met the same fate that Dakota did that day, their closest friend's weapon meeting their leg. Yet, both times, Dakota feels it was their fault.They feel it was their fault for disobeying. Their fault for even being there in the first place. They wonder,Do you blame them too?

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* Squire Solana :

“ Please don't hate me. „

Dakota didn't do enough. They didn't do enough when Arturo left the Order, nor when Arturo pulled them aside and held a gun to his chin.They were too much of a coward. Do you hold a grudge against them for that?They understand if you do.

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* Jr. Squire Leo :

“ Why didn't you let me go? „

Dakota doesn't know what to think. They don't know whether to be mad that you held onto their wrist for so long, or happy that you did.Singing that nursery rhyme to them in german brought some memories back.
You didn't do anything either. That makes you just as bad.

* Squire Seraphina :

“ You're really pretty. „

Dakota hasn't seen you in a while. Admittedly, they've only interacted with you once, but it makes them wonder where you've been.They wonder why you and Adeline were so.. aggressive towards each other. Dakota could never physically harm their brother.

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* Paladin Emilian :

“ Go on, run away! Run away from your fucking wrongdoings! „

Disappointing. A fucking coward, that's what you are.They don't know how you got the position of Paladin over Ursa or even Mordred. Hell, Yosef would be a better Paladin than you are.You are no leader. You are no father. You are a coward who ran away when called out.

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* Page Drifter :

“ Sorry. „

You might not be able to teach them after all. It's fine, nothing lasts forever, huh?Unfortunately, they probably don't need you anymore. How bittersweet. They didn't even realize you were gone, Mr. Drifter!They found someone else who fits the role so, so much better.

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* Knight Tomkin :

“ Of course I like you! „

Despite forgetting who Tomkin was for a little bit, they consider him a nice friend! Especially after bullying Drifter with him.They wish you came to the party, after all, they still consider you one of their friends.

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* Page Maximillian :

“ Hope your finger is okay. „

Dakota hasn't seen you in a bit, and wonders how you've been doing. They still feel super guilty about breaking your finger.One of the only people in the Order they don't hate. Wish you came to their party, though.

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* Priest Vaughn :

“ Freedom is scary, and lonely. „

They're happy you came and attended their party--they don't know why they doubted you would in the first place. Even if you didn't participate much, they're glad you came.Thank you for trying to help them.

Don't let them find out that you're the one who snitched on Catherine, though.

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relationships.

“ Kingdom of Undercrab. „

* Hazel Colyer :

“ I'll make a safe space, „

Ever since the coronation, Hazel has been staying with Dakota.They're glad they can provide a home for her, they're glad that they can return the kindness she gave them to her.They won't let you leave them too.

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* Rudy The Werewolf :

“ For both of you. „

Rudy has been staying with Dakota since the events of the coronation.Dakota hopes to take good care of him, even with the limitations of their new home.Just stay with them, and it'll all be okay.

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* Rembrant The Grand :

“ Eugh ... „

Dakota sincerely dislikes Rembrant.They don't really view him as the de facto leader of the Kingdom. Honestly, they struggle to believe he's a real person with his behaviours. They'll stay courteous to him, though. At least-- they'll try.

* Don The Mage :

“ Got what he deserved. „

Watching Don die, Dakota felt nothing. They just felt numb. Not any hatred, not any relief, just nothing. No remorse.After all, he deserved it. The consequences and karma of his own actions led to his death. Why would they feel any bad for that?

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“ Zwei Personen scheinen vermisst zu werden. „

relationships.

“ Miscellaneous. „

People unaffiliated with a faction or apart of a different faction.

* Terry :

“ Child of Filth. „

Their stomach twists and turns being near the Quantum Labs.Dakota sort of wishes that you had just killed them that day. That help never came and they bled out there.Still, they can't help but feel pitiful for you. Sympathetic. Despite everything, they want to help you.You two aren't so different.

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* Silversix :

“ Stay gone. „

Dakota sort of wishes Slamstick hadn't appeared that day, when you came up to their tent.That's sort of fucked to wish, isn't it? Their eye would've been forced out of its socket.Would it have hurt much? They hope it would. Maybe they'd look less like their dad-- no, they wouldn't.They'd look more like him, wouldn't they?

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* Elodie Duboise :

“ I'll use your goggles next time! „

Dakota had really enjoyed going on looting runs with you. They've been wanting to go on another but.. where have you been?

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* Dante Rossi :

“ I hope you're alright! „

Dakota hasn't seen Dante in a while. They're kind of sad about it, considering how nice he was as soon as he met them.They don't know that he's met his end. Who knows if they'll ever learn, as only one person holds that info.

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* Chloe Sandmoaf :

“ I'm sorry. „

Dakota will probably never learn what happened to Chloe. I doubt anyone from the Order will inform them. Typical.

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* Birdie Mauve :

“ Can I buy another pack? „

Dakota met Birdie when they were younger, before they dyed their hair, in Bargetown. They've been buying sugar cookies from her for a while, and they're well acquaintanced.Birdie helped Dakota dye their hair blue!

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relationships.

“ Family. „

Blood runs thicker than water, doesn't it?

* Slamstick :

“ You never deserved me. „

It's been two months since they saw you last. Whatever, they're used to it. Will you even care for their birthday? Whatever, it doesn't matter to them.Dakota always flips between how they feel about you. It tires them out. Waiting for you to actually care tires them out.

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* XXXXXXXXX XXX? :

“ ... Thank you. „

You brought them a gift they never could have imagined they would hear again. You're so, so kind to them.Dakota didn't really know what to wish when they blowed out the candles, as you had already granted one of their wishes. Then they remembered something.

You should've been my son- not his.

... So, they wished that they were. A fruitless wish, really, but they wished for it anyways.

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* I'm Your Star. :

“ I can finally hear your voice again. „

Dakota misses you. When they miss you, they start doing terrible things to themself. They feel terrible and selfish for destroying the body that you gave them, but they need to redirect the pain they're feeling to the surface.They're trying to get a sense of you again, trying to place someone in the role of you, just like they had done with Arturo. But it's difficult, because you're their mother, not anyone else.Kind of sucks to know that you are the root of all your child's problems, doesn't it?They wished to hear your voice again, and their wish was granted.

☆☆☆☆☆☆My love for you is infinite, just like the stars.☆☆☆☆☆☆

* Napalm :

“ We all tried our best that day. „

The other two don't seem to trust you, but Dakota does. How couldn't they?... Dakota doesn't believe it's your fault. They don't want to. If anything, they still find that they're placing the blame on themself.

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* Arturo Albero :

“ I wish you could be here.. „

It feels like this all started with you, like the start of dominoes. All because of one old spring mistake.They wish you could have made it to May. They wish you could've lived to celebrate their birthday with them. They just wish you were still here, with them. Yet, wishing gets you nowhere.Still, they'll wish. They hope you watched from the stars, celebrating with them from up above.

☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆You are so much more than stars.☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆

relationships.

“ .. I'll see you. „

They always knew you two would leave them eventually. Still, as much as they braced for it, it hurt them. They felt so abandoned, and to vent it out, they push their frustrations towards the Order. They miss being able to see you two everyday.If you need it, there will always be a spot in their home for you two. Though, they doubt there's a chance that you two will come back to them for help.

Seine Gefühle sind nicht seine eigenen.

* Former Queen of Undercrab :

“ If the day comes that we're reborn again, „

Dakota is hurt for you.
Pain resides in them for how they had wronged you, not even knowing the truth would change their mind -- for they would always side with you.
Dakota never fit in with anyone. They were alone, had no one to relate to.Then, that faithful day where they happened to tag along on your rescue mission.
They happened to meet your brother, and they got to meet so many new friends through him and you.
Dakota will never regret meeting you.
You and Dakota are so similar, it's almost eerie. They almost view you as a younger version of themself, and they have to live with the fact that there will never truly be a happy ending for them, for you.Please, Catherine. Don't abandon them ever in this lifetime.

* Former Knight of Undercrab :

“ Then I hope, in my next life ... „

Dakota is angry for you. They hadn't understood your disdain for the Order until your exile. All you had done for them, thrown away from a crime you couldn't have committed.Dakota never thought someone would care about them again after their mother died.But now, everyday they think
They’re glad they finally have friends,
They’re glad that they have people looking out for them,
They’re glad there’s people who would willingly spend money on them,
They’re glad that you’re their friend.
You were their first friend, Luis. No matter what happens, even if you hate them again, even if you try to kill them again, even if you abandon them too,
they’ll forever be grateful they met you.

“ That we'll all be friends again, no matter the circumstances. „

extra

“ Want to know more? „

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Dakota has a daily workout routine, mostly just for their own health.

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They're also surprisingly flexible!

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Dakota sometimes writes poems!

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They also write with a quill and specifically blue ink.

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To keep themself entertained, living alone for 10 years, they tended to learn a lot of random stuff to pass the time.

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Adding onto them learning random stuff, they can make flower crowns, write in cat font, cook (and can cook well), and sew.

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They can see really well in the dark. their eyes even "glow" like the eyes of a cat.

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All of their senses are heightened, not just sight and hearing.

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They're more tolerant to extreme temperatures than others.

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They wear an "evil eye charm" necklace and don't seem to ever take it off.

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They're actually very crafty. they made their rollerskates themself out of the only pair of boots they owned (at the time) and a bunch of scraps.

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In their original design, they wore headphones because they have sensitive hearing--more sensitive than others.

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Dakota speaks at a lower volume than most people do because of their sensitive hearing. They don't realize they do this.

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They dislike being in crowded places due to their heightened senses. They can hear almost every small thing, and it bothers them.

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Morse code is one of the many random things they learned with their endless free time, they can translate it pretty effortlessly.

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If Dakota was an animal, they'd be a black cat!
“ Bad luck. „

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You'd think their favourite colour is red, but it is actually this shade of blue!
“ the colour blue reminds me of two now. „

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They've originally not liked talking about their past, but they've become more open to talking about it recently.

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Dakota didn't speak until they turned five years old, and then went mute for another period in their life. They learned ASL because of this.

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The downside of their heightened senses are that they get overloaded easily, causing them to get overstimulated easily.

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Dakota doesn't like a lot of food because of the texture of it. This also goes for things such as materials. They hate velvet fabric because of this.

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Dakota doesn't have a soft spot for children, they have a soft spot for children with rough upbringings.

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Dakota always prioritizes the safety and well-being of others before themself, letting them get treated first or get the food first and such.

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They don't like feeling useless. Let them be useful.

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Dakota tends to carry around items that remind them of the people they've lost. They're never seen parting with those items and would get extremely upset if they were.

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Their blood type is O-, meaning that they are the universal blood donor.

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Not being taught how to talk properly, they used to talk weirdly until they were harrassed into beating that way of speaking out of themself.

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Dakota doesn't like trying new food after eating canned beans and soup for most of their life.

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They inherit more from their father than just physical traits.

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Dakota is incredibly desensitized to things such as corpses and gore.
Morbidly enough, they sometimes find these things as a source of entertainment.

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Dakota doesn't like crying in front of others. It makes them feel weak.

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Dakota's dyed hair was originally black, but it faded into more of a blue.

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Dakota has become increasingly more uncomfortable with others touching them. I wonder why that is?

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Being around Dakota always smelled faintly like lemons. When they returned though, the scent was almost overwhelmingly strong, like they doused themself in the stuff.

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Despite their idea of their father improving, they still hate being compared to him. They acknowledge how similar they look to him, but they hate it. That's why they've tried to alter their appearance so many times.

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After holding a poll amongst very few people (this only canonly being Luis), Dakota dyed their hair blue!

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Dakota is very prone to shutdowns--more commonly seen with them. But, they are also prone to meltdowns.

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inventory

“ A look into my stuff. „

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* Custom Card Deck :

Dakota's custom card deck that they painted themself. All of them have cats on them. There's a bookmark tab on the Ace of Diamonds.

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* Wallet :

A nice red wallet that contains about 1180 ND. It also contains a Bargetown Citizen ID.

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* Cigarette Pack :

The pack is almost empty. That's fine, though, they have three more.

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* Revolver Ammo :

Ammo for their revolver. They don't go through this that quickly, considering Dakota prefers melee over guns.

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* HeadPhones :

Black headphones decorated with stickers. They don't wear them as much anymore.They crave the pain it brings to their ears hearing noise too loud for their ears.

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* Lemon Soap :

Lemon-scented soap. Similarly to the perfume, it smells as if they used both natural lemon scent and artificial lemon scent.

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* Bag of Candy :

A bag of various candies that they bring around. They received this one from a certain GLA courier.

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* Vaughn's Cloth :

They tend to use this more on others than they do themself, like most of their belongings. They've always wanted to lift others up, not just themself, and they used this cloth as a way to help with that.

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* Pink Revolver :

A revolver custom-made for Dakota, gifted to them by their father. It's a pink revolver with fancy engravings. To others, it's an atrocity. To them, it's the nicest thing their father gave them, and the nicest thing they own.

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* Carving Knife :

A carving knife with their initials on it, given to them as a Christmas gift. They cherish it as a reminder of their late brother.

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* Friendship Necklaces :

Two friendship necklaces in the shape of cats that connect. One of them is black, the other is white. They've had these for a bit, wearing the black one, waiting for someone to give the other half to.They were going to give the other half to their younger brother. They can't anymore.

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* PDA :

A PDA made out of parts they had scavenged. Arturo had put it together for them. They cherish it with their whole heart, a memory of him.

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* Dual Daggers :

Luis' birthday present to them. Two steel daggers with curved blades, stars etched into it. One handle was red and white with blue paint stains while the other one had the colours inverted. Small green gemstones were painted onto the end of the handle.

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* Leather JOurnal :

A fancy leather journal with a lock. Dakota can often be seen writing in this journal, unlocking it with a key. It makes you wonder what they have written inside.

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* Painted Lighter :

A small, standard lighter that was painted over, presumably by Dakota. It’s of Van Gogh’s Starry Night.

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* Medical Kit :

Something they only started carrying around after luis was shot. proved to come in handy. they refill it as regularly as they can, so they can continue being useful.

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* Old Camera :

A pristine old camera that Dakota found while scavenging with the Elodie. They gave the other one they had to their little brother.They wish they could've taken more pictures of him.

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* Fluffy Blanket :

A fluffy blue blanket. They don’t use it much themself, as it's meant more for other’s use. The colour reminds them of Catherine.

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* Lemon Perfume :

A lemon-scented perfume. It smells as if they used both a natural lemon scent and an artificial lemon scent. You recognize this as the scent Dakota always wears.They've begun to spray an overwhelming amount on themself, and it seems to be depleting quickly-- too quickly to just be sprayed on.

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* Drug Stash :

Multiple drugs found during looting runs, mainly shrooms. They don't use these, but they still keep them for some reason. Some of these are definitely expired, too. . .

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* Mp3 Player :

A red MP3 player in a small, embroidered drawstring bag. There are various stickers on the back, as well as a piece of tape reading “property of dakota!” in cursive and blue ink. playlist linked in extras!

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* Ursa's Gummy Bears :

The gummy bears that Ursa had clipped to her belt, which she gave to Dakota. Despite being given these a while ago, they haven't finished them. They're simply clipped to their belt.

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* Crochet Salamander :

A small crochet salamander, with an orange and black color scheme. They made this for Napalm as a birthday gift, but it was given back to them as a sign he'll always be there for them.

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* Unknown PDA :

A nice looking PDA that they didn't have the courage to say no to taking it. They don't use it, and plan to give it back.

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* Black Cat Pins:

Multiple pins of black cats with emerald green eyes. Fitting for the Jester. Gifted to them by Napalm for their birthday.

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* Spiked Gloves :

Two leather gloves with spiked knuckles, reminiscent of Ursa's gloves. A cat face with green eyes are stitched on the back of them. These were gifted to Dakota by Catherine.

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* Small Lockbox :

An early birthday gift to Dakota, one they treasure immensely. It's unknown what's inside of it, being a small lockbox with a tiny keyhole--often locked, and it can be assumed that Dakota's the one with the key.
“ I can finally hear your voice again. „

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Now we're back to the beginning,
It's just a feeling and no one knows yet.
But just because they can't feel it too
Doesn't mean that you have to forget.
Let your memories grow stronger and stronger,
'Til they're before your eyes.
You'll come back when they call you,

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